Due to dark past, David Feherty wonders, “Why am I alive?”

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David Feherty is widely known among us golfers as a accomplished funnyman with a gift for gab, but how many of us are clued in on his herculean battle with substance abuse? It’s a past many of us would prefer to forget, but Feherty was very candid about his struggles in an interview with Rolling Stone yesterday. As a longtime sufferer of bipolar disorder, he tried to manage his mental health through self-medication. As he reveals, it was not the best-laid plan he’s ever come up with.

“A typical day was 30-40 Vicodin and two and a half bottles of whiskey… real whiskey. Whiskey with an ‘e’. There was cocaine, there was dope. When I think about it now, I’m like, ‘Why am I alive?'”

It’s certainly an unenviable predicament to be escaping from, but Feherty managed it with the help of his wife and golfer Tom Watson, who took him into his home at one point to save him from himself. While their efforts have no doubt been a large part of his salvation, Feherty is still working at freeing himself from some very persistent demons and from his continued reliance on pills to get through the day.

“I get overwhelmed with sadness several times a day and spend a lot of time in tears. I now take 14 pills a day – antidepressants, mood stabilizers and amphetamines. The Adderall is enough to tear most people off the ceiling, but I can take a nap.”

However, this time, he’s armed with the help of a therapist and a good dose of self-awareness. And of course, the support of his adoring public.